Pinch, punch, last day of the month. No returns.

I wonder whoever came up with that rhyme. And I wonder what they were thinking of when they thought of it.


I know the usual rhyme is for the first day of the month, but I wanted to blog something today. Something to do rather than going on Facebook or revising for tests. Revising is effort for me. I hate to sound that leeeeeeetle bit big-headed, but I'm one of those lucky students that don't revise for tests and come out with, on average, 80/100. The week coming, I've got SATs so that my school can access the entire year group's levels across maths, English and science for an end of KS3 level. I've forgotten half of the KS3 stuff because I've started GCSE, but now we students had to drop all the stuff we were doing on GCSE and concentrate on SATs. It isn't half confusing because it means re-remembering stuff from the last two years (I'm fast tracked) and trying to remember all the GCSE stuff -.-


Other news:


The royal wedding was yesterday! I was feeling like a nationalist because of all the England and British flags and buntings that decorated many streets :] Kate Middleton sure was the dazzling bride and old half-bald William cracked a joke at the altar. It sure was a highlight of the year and it meant I got a day off school ;D

I absolutely loved all the Facebook pages about the mishaps of the weddings, for example, the "angry child" in the picture of their kiss, and the horse that took of without the rider, and the nun with the Reeboks :'] Oh, and don't forget Pippa Middleton and Prince Harry "mysteriously" disappearing [; Sure was a day to remember :D

The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold.

I started this book yesterday by Alice Sebold and I'm more than half way through. I'm typically a fast reader, and could've read the book from cover to cover within a night, but I just couldn't. Perhaps it was all this time off school and the break from reading so much, but it was probably something else.


For those of you that don't know the story, it's written from the view-point of a young teenage girl (around my age) who was raped before being murdered by a neighbour. Once dead, she reaches heaven and looks down to Earth to watch the lives of her family, friends and murderer. There in heaven, she watches over them as their lives unfold and continue after her death.

The Lovely Bones book cover.

Whilst following this sad and tragic tale of the girl, my mind often drifts to the "what ifs" the story implies. Well, it doesn't imply this directly, but it does make you think. A lot.


My first thoughts whilst reading this was "What would happen if I died just now? Doesn't matter how or why, just dying or dead. Would people mourn me? What would they think of me? What would my family do? Would my kid brother understand the truth his big sister was dead and was never going to wake up?"


Then came all these kind of thoughts: "Wait. Where would I be? Does heaven exist? Does hell exist?! Or do I get reborn? Is any religion right? Or do I just die. What happens when you just die? What happens if you just watch from above and see all the people you left behind?..."


Questions went round and round my head for hours. You can become very selfish - as I did - when you think about your own death. Petty things like things you used to own you want to make sure go to the right kind of people and the arrangements of your own funeral. All the little things. Then you get over that and then move onto thinking about your family and friends - and how your death may affect them in both good ways, and bad for death is natural and everyone has to die eventually.


Even writing this blog is hard for me because every time I type anything, I ponder over what I had previously written. God forbid (though I am not sure of a God existing) that I or anyone I know, are taken before their time. Just a few weeks ago, a year 8 at my school had recently died of an unknown brain tumour that was found too late. Within days of finding out about it, she had left this Earth. I knew her enough. 


That story, combined with the tale of The Lovely Bones made my brain hurt with all the "what ifs" in this world. I'm not sure if I fear death in the way that I speak of. Yet. Only time will tell. Comment below and share with me your thoughts.


"Men fear Death, as children fear to go in the dark; and as that natural fear in children is increased with tales, so is the other."  Francis Bacon


^Kind of appropriate considering The Lovely Bones is told from the view-point of the child. Some argue that the Dark is Death itself.

Back to school brings the utmost joy.

I joke. I am obviously joking. I went back to school today, back from the Easter break and bank holiday and found that not much has changed. However, they have ruined the new school timetable D:


Honestly, who would cut 10 MINUTES OF BREAK and add it onto dreadful FORMTIME (registration). Some people are plain stupid. Including me, but at least I know that break is more important than sitting there doing nothing (what usually happens in form).


"You send your child to the schoolmaster, but 'tis the schoolboys who educate him."  -Ralph Waldo Emerson


^Yep, that there is the reason for "chatting"

Follow up on my "Horoscope of the day." blog post.

I posted a blog post yesterday about horoscopes (click here to read it) to see if there may be any truth in any of them for that one day, in my case. The results were surprising in fact.


Horoscope 1: 

• What is an earth weightiness and how can you feel it :S (earth weightiness bit)
• Relationships with me are always difficult. Especially with the 'rents. (relationships diff. situation bit)
• The sky + clouds were lovely yesterday! (clouds light up bit)
• Oh my gosh! How did they know about the last minute homework?! They must be psychic. (last minute planning bit)
• I'm guessing they're talking about the school gate? (starting gate bit)

Horoscope 2:

• Stood up for what I believed in - didn't get very far. (stand up for what you believe today bit)

Horoscope 3:

• Did a bit of "communicating feelings" and worked on my communication skills - via Facebook and this blog. (pretty much all the paragraph)

Well, I could find things and interpret them to fit the horoscope but it's all a little too vague for me. I still think they're trying to con you! Although it was a bit cool when I read the last minute planning bit :L 

"I do my work at the same time each day - the last minute."  -Author Unknown

The silly little things that make me hate you.

I'm one of those people who gets annoyed about the little little things in life because the little things matter. Things like the tone of voice you may use, or the words of choice when talking to me matter. Trust matters, as does the truth. Things like lies make me hate you, and the thing that makes me hate you more, is that I trusted you.

"It takes two to lie.  One to lie and one to listen."  -Homer Simpson from The Simpsons

Why on Earth did I listen?

Horoscope of the day.

I've never really been one to take notice of horoscopes except when they specify money. But when it never comes true, I still hope a little, even if I know it is very unlikely and joke about how unlikely things can be. Comparing various horoscopes for today (April 25th) and seeing if there may be truth in any of them. Will post the results tomorrow or when I can. I think about the people who truly believe in horoscopes and wonder why they do, and how they can. Also, I wonder how people make up horoscopes and why they tend to contradict other sites that offer the same kinda thing.

Horoscope 1:

There's an earthy weightiness to today. You could feel like your relationships are in a difficult situation, Gemini. Don't worry, because the clouds are going to lighten up tremendously after today. Put in your hard work now and do any last minute planning you feel is necessary before you're off and running. The starting gate is about to open.

Horoscope 2:

You have to stand up for what you believe today -- but you should find that you're not alone. At the very least, you can influence the right people to help you make your case. Don't be scared!

Horoscope 3:

Obtaining and exchanging information is very important for you and you do your best to learn good problem-solving techniques. Being more involved with neighbors or sibling(s) satisfies a deep emotional need. Communicating feelings becomes important. Your work mentally and physically becomes more refined emotionally. Getting your message across and learning how and when to say no successfully is an important issue for you. You know that your mind and ego are at risk if you cannot foster discrimination and clearness. Your willpower and intuition grows little by little and this is the perfect time to work on communication skills. Personal growth is encouraged now as you have gained confidence in your work.

Until tomorrow, and see the results of this little experiment.

P.S. I am a Gemini. Whatever that means.

The person (or people) that make tears effortlessly fall down your face.

Parents. You hate them, but you always love them. I wish I were older so I'd have the option to leave them forever. But then again, I wish I were younger when I loved them so.

"It is some relief to weep; grief is satisfied and carried off by tears."  -Ovid

The Easter story.

The Western world has interpreted Easter in all kinds of ways like the Easter story, Jesus, eggs, chicks, rabbits, rebirth etc. I am no Christian, nor am I a member of anything to do with religion, but Easter is a holiday for Christians right? But like Christmas, such Christian holidays have morphed into other festivities and celebrations. People my age do joke about "what Jesus might think" about their mothers having banned them from Easter eggs. It's a laugh, though I can't help but feel that it's the wrong idea of Easter with Easter eggs and Easter presents and cards. It's great that we have them, but is it right or wrong that they exist and we associate Easter with them? Thinking about Easter eggs... The siblings+friends have stolen a lot of it that I no longer have any chocolate left D:


Other news:
I and some friends of mine went to Thorpe Park yesterday - it was brilliant :D I was finding it funny when the girls were checking out the fit boys, and the boys were checking anything out :L Especially those in the tight bikini tops and hot pants. 


"Nobody will ever win the Battle of the Sexes.  There's just too much fraternizing with the enemy."  -Henry Kissinger


Ouch to such a sexist world.

Thoughts of yesterday.

Well dear reader (for I hope there will be at least one other than myself) I was thinking about yesterday. Yesterday, it was my friend's birthday, and we had a sleepover. It wasn't really how I would've thought it would be like. Not all the doing hair and make up and nails and stuff like that (although we did watch a movie and pig out). I was surprised at all the deep thoughts and memories that we shared and our opinions on people. Although such thoughts were about such trivial subjects like clothes and boys and make up, it is a wonder how you can dig into things. For example, we thought about how people act with different people, then how they will come across to us and to others. I realised that people will do a lot to please other people, although not necessarily for themselves. The lengths that some girls go to to look and seem "pretty" is absolutely wrong. There really is no need to go to lengths to make your appearance more "attractive". The reason I put pretty and attractive in quotation marks is because they are opinions rather than facts. Just because you are a little pale doesn't mean that you need to cheese puff your entire body. Do you seriously prefer looking like a Wotsit to being as pale as a milk bottle? Well, some people do and they like it that way, but what happened to "natural beauty"? People do indeed wear extravagant amounts of make up and products that surely do more harm than good? Excessive amounts of make up have always been a turn off, no matter what. Make up does make a difference to your appearance, but it can swing towards an improvement and a fail. I'm not dissing make up or anything, but is bright ORANGE a good idea? Or about a jar of tar-like mascara any good for your eyelashes? 


Might post some thoughts later - dinner is kind of more important at the moment :D